July 2010
2 posts
sweet x)
im back here..
and im nothing like that depressive and lost girl who i used to be 3 months ago.
im happy) happy and i know where im going. this feels SO good.
YAY))
ps. go SPAIN!! david villa is the best *_____*
March 2010
10 posts
frickin secrets
arghhhh i hate it..
they all have a secret about one of my best friends and refuse to tell me. theyre scared im gonna tell.
why on EARTH would i?!??! im as silent as a fish!
so not fair X((((
Reblog with your birthplace.
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Oakridge, Tennessee.
Boston, Massachusetts.
Coon Rapids, Minnesota.
Boulder, Colorado.
Epsom, Surrey, United Kingdom
Rochford, Essex, United Kingdom
Chelmsford, Essex, United Kingdom
Dagenham, Essex, United...
this is the second one)))
wow…. doing that was really quite awesome. i...
nothing works
it hurts like hell
it hurts like nothing else
and there is nothing i can do, except for keep myself from screaming.
happy bday pretty man x)))
YAYYYYYYYY)))))))))
i thought it would never come!!!
FIRST DAY OF SPRING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yayyyyyyyy))))))))))))) the winter was way too long x)
February 2010
37 posts
arghhhh
dammit.
shouldnt have smoked in my room. my mum walked in and confiscated the cigarettes. got away with just a tiny bit of lecturing.
fuck. i need money. now.
reading
the seagull (chekhov) in ENGLISH. sounds absurd. after reading it in russian, to me it seems like … mona lisa, done in pencil.
absurd.
still there
havent really been writing anything recently. not that anyone reads this.
some things i really hate.
i hate being away from the very purpose of my existence. not another-town away. like another-country-that-you-need-a-visa-to-go-to away.
i hope one day something goes horribly wrong in my head and i will forget, everything. and lose, everything. i am ready to do that now because i have broken my...
note to self:
klsydrkns:
never post lyrics on tumblr. Reblogs are unbearable. ;)
just joking xD
:)
speaks to me.
or no
maybe i should stop smoking.
or maybe not
speaks to me
omg
i am officially the biggest idiot you will probably ever meet.
i got lost somewhere between basildon and pitsea, walked till i hit laindon and then back to pitsea on foot, pitsea centre. fucking hell. my feet hurt. all in one evening. all on foot.
workout.
“…it has taught me to hope, as i had scarcely allowed myself before.
if...”
– pride and prejudice
2:20
пора спать. ну с ним, с гарри поттером, досмотрю завтра. бррр >< живот болит. нечесно. о да, несс, ты теперь жалуешься на свою судьбу, сколько, 3 года спустя? великолепно xDD не верю что говорю это… но я хочу лето. я хочу домой. хочу так сильно что сейчас начну топать ногами и плакать. дыа. как маленькая девочка. я еще помню как не хотела ходить в детский сад. может я предвидела то что...
best friends forever
hahah. forever ends so quickly. such a pity, but i cant be bothered any more. sorry.
oh...
hahah)) i just have these days when i start taking pictures of myself in this mirror XD usually they dont go anywhere but now ive got this place XD nothing wasted.
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that was
a bit below the belt. i still love the way you hate me. and i hate the way you love me. because during rare moments that you do, i miss your harshness. shit. i knew i was a masochist, i just knew it. i know. i am an insecure little girl who just grew up. and i do deny this fact. but with every cigarette that i smoke secretly hiding from the world the fact that im slowly getting addicted, i step...
love it.
whylatvia:
“In Riga you can get a hotel room for two dollars a night and a bottle of champagne for three dollars. And the men and women have the most beautiful eyes. None of the things that concern us here in America bother them because the Russians still have souls.” — (Pg. 80, L19) | “The Extra Man”
not just russians))) latvians are lovely people x)))
2:17
just had another cigarette. if i was completely alone at home and the neighbors were already asleep it would have been just perfect.
im exhausted in every possible way, but i still really dont want to go to sleep… as if i will never ever have another possibility of a night like this. i hope it is not true.
stuff
something that i love about being in this country:
to meet up with a friend i have to take two busses and the whole journey to grays from pitsea took me today an hour and 41 minute. the whole thing made me feel so independent XDDDD
since my mums and stepdads friends are mostly either people that dont know me or someone who lives far away, my mum is either at home or at work, so is...
the saddest
thought on my mind is … 4 months. 4 more months till i go home again. by then (and now, already) it will be by far the longest ive ever been away from home. its 4 already, 4 more to go. i know this time is probably going to pass very quickly, but the moments when i think about it, they last ages. dont know how to get it off my mind. wow… damn. im homesick.
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it is so beautiful it almost hurts.
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i wish
i was born a chukchi. x)))
or, maybe, eskimo, i dont care.
i love cold. i love being warm sitting inside when it is freezing outside and, more important, i love being outside when it is cold. i
love the way wind burns your skin and it gets through your bones or when its snowing so hard you cant see a thing and the snowflakes feel like little icicles on your skin… (omg i sound like a...
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oh yes
oh yes i love star wars,
probably spend more time in the internet than i should,
talk to inanimate objects
listen to green day, and piano music
can watch pride and prejudice over and over again
and i genuinely think peter andre must DIE.
almost it. just one thing.
Key to love:
1) find a key and pick it up. 2) as you pick it up, call out the name of the one you desire. 3)...
last day. this has got to be good. biology...
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Wow i feel like a genius
just changed my proxy to location: Russian Federation XD
well done me, even though its probably one of the most useless things ive ever done… although it does compete with studying higher IB maths Oo””
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Rrreally looking forward
to half term now. I promised myself it will be epic: lonely, fun and educational. okay, couple of days might not turn out as lonely as id want but its all good fun.
london x)))))) NATURAL HISTORY MUSEUM!!!! argh…. i could be becoming a nerd, but i dont care, im gonna carry on loving science and history related museums.
Enjoyed
my five minutes of feeling like home, in the snow… i love snow. i love cold.
[the coral - dreaming of you] and oh god how i love scrubs.
Listen
Listen
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still there
really angry, leaving for college. i really wish nobody tried to talk to me today. but the chances are, they will >
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still there
seriously!
what is it with my age and everybody?! cant ANY part of my life NOT be affected by it?!
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still there
i really should go to sleep